Sunday, May 6, 2012

Wishes Are Free

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and abundant.

I Wish:
*people I love were always aware of it
*people didn't have to leave, by choice or otherwise
*people didn't have to hurt or suffer
*we could always be honest without hurting others 
*love were easy and hate were difficult
*dreams were easier to remember
*I had said...

Saturday, May 5, 2012

A Mantra For May

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It's been a while since I've been here (again), and it has been a while since I have connected to the world around me.  The past few months have found me in some sort of combination of paying attention, while somehow being completely detached.  
I haven't run in a year, exactly.  Last year I worked extremely hard to work my way up to running three miles, starting with walk/run intervals, gradually increasing the run portion.  Eventually the running decreased and the walking ended altogether.  
Recently I made the decision to begin walking again, once May arrived. Sunday I headed off to the beautiful preserve that is nestled in my neighborhood. I listened to music, observed the beauty around me, took photos and walked. Running may come again in time, but if not, I'm okay with that. What I found that I needed as much as physical exercise, was some sort of reconnection, I needed to not only get outside, but I needed to get outside of my head. 
Last Friday after class I found this advice of the day written on the board in my room:
"Ask yourself if it is worth the time/thought/energy, and if not, get the hell over it".
Blunt and to the point.  I have no idea exactly who this advice was directed at, but I have to wonder if she had any idea how much I needed it.  
"get the hell over it"...walk..."get the hell over it"....walk..."get the hell over it...walk...get the hell over it...breathe