Friday, December 31, 2010

Transformation

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Last year my word for 2010 was transformation. I had a specific image in my head how this would look. Much to my surprise, the transformation I went through came in a completely different form.
I began a photo journal to document my transformation, from which this photo is taken, last January. I abandoned the project once I began to feel ashamed that not only was there no transformation taking place, but I seemed to be backsliding.
During that time I was drowning in certain realities about life and my place in the world, in my family, and in my own head.
It wasn't until I started reflecting on the past year and trying to come up with a word for 2011 that I realized I did undergo a huge transformation, it just wasn't in the sense of the word that I originally intended.
Sitting here writing this I realize I am in a completely different place than I was at this time last year. I am content. I gave in to who I am, not who I think I should be or what I think is expected of me. I am happy.
I haven't stopped caring about others or abandoned my responsibilities, but I do approach those aspects of humanity much more honestly and authentically.
Upon reflection I am satisfied to know that the transformation I underwent was not a physical one, but a mental one.
As for my word for 2011, well, perhaps it will come to me at some point today.


Thursday, December 30, 2010

Vision

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Only when I look at myself through your eyes do I see my imperfection.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Good Grief

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It's all behind us now.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Silence

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"do not speak unless you can improve the silence"
~danish proverb

Thursday, December 16, 2010

In Progress (still)

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Small portion of a painting that I have had in progress since last January.
It has gone through many changes, but not changed all that much. I am finally at a point where I am happy with what I have completed. I am ready to add another element to it, though I am still debating what that will be.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Torn

torn

I never claimed to be perfect.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Dread

Dread

I do not feel the need to explain why or how this came about, it was something that just needed to happen.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Sunday, October 3, 2010

In The Stillness


"In solitude we are least alone"
~Lord Byron

Monday, September 27, 2010

You're Way Down You're Full Of Something

In Dreams

This image is a detail from an installation "what do you dream about at night" featured at Artprize.
Though I didn't have time to look at each individual
jar, I love the concept. Dreams in jars.
I feel like I have been living in my dreams the past few weeks. In dreams anything is possible, I love that aspect of dreams. One third of a day can go absolutely any way your mind thinks it should go. It is not always good, but most of the time it is wonderful and beautiful.
The absolute beauty is that it belongs to only you.


Monday, September 20, 2010

I Think It's Strange You Never Knew

I Think It's Strange You Never Knew
I have been MIA here on my blog the past week. Of course work is taking up much more of my time right now, but I am also feeling a lack of inspiration these days. Maybe it is just a transitional period. Once the leaves change and I have settled into the routine perhaps my creative mojo will resurface.
It seems I have faded into myself.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Waiting

The Little Things
It's the little things you miss when you're underneath it all
~City and Color



Saturday, September 11, 2010

Carry Me

flashes bringing on my open eyes to lightning storms the touch of mist felt soft felt warm on my face

flashes bringing on
my open eyes to lightning storms
the touch of mist
felt soft felt warm on my face
~Sun Kill Moon

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Monday, September 6, 2010

Laborious

Now Where Did Summer Go?

Tomorrow is the day that I return to work and begin my 13th year of teaching, with a more than fair contract. I would like to thank the members of our negotiating team who spent their summer fighting for what is fair, and standing strong against what was not.

Happy Labor Day!





Sunday, September 5, 2010

Loves Me Not...

loves me not...loves me
Loves Me.

I have been having a hard time resolving recently that some people may not be happy with me, and therefore see me as less than a wonderful person.
I understand that you can not please everyone or live up to their expectations. I have never in my life set out to intentionally harm anyone, it is just not in my nature.
This week I received a comment in an e-mail "...you are a kind and wonderful human being" in regards to accommodations for a student. I realized in that moment that all the negativity someone may hold against me doesn't matter, because I know that when it comes to being a good person in the most sincere situations, I've got it covered.



Saturday, September 4, 2010

Our Hearts Were Ringing...

September
In the key that our souls were singing
September by Eath,, Wind and Fire

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

TWOsday : 4

TWOsday : 4
Today is the last day of August Break. I have really enjoyed participating in this project. It has been very inspirational and motivating, something that I needed at this time. Thank you for visiting!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Backspace

Backspace
Wouldn't it be nice if life had a backspace button sometimes?

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Edges

Photography is about finding out what can happen in the frame. When you put four edges around some facts, you change those facts.
~Garry Winogrand


Saturday, August 28, 2010

Zoo

Summer is winding down and we are preparing to go back to school/work for another year. Today was one of those perfect end of the summer days, still warm with just a hint of fall in the air. We decided it was a good day to visit the zoo.

If you knew my girl you would know that being able to see the snow leopard this close was a huge thrill, I think she shrieked when he popped-up in front of her. Usually when we go it is so hot that they are sleeping off in the shade, and are hard to spot.

A few years ago, when the snow leopard was just a baby, he ran right up to the window when she walked in (though I don't think they can see in through the window), she was convinced today that he remembered her and is why he came up to the window again, she said "maybe he could sense that it was me"

Friday, August 27, 2010

Treasure


My wonderful friend Jules found 8, yes EIGHT, packs of unused Polaroid film in her office. Film that was no longer needed. She was kind enough to leave it in my mailbox for me yesterday while I was at the beach. How exciting to come home to that.

I see something special for her in the near future.


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Mindful

Today was most likely our last venture to the beach this season. It was a coolish day, but we decided to go anyway. Unlike the rest of the season, it was not crowded at all. That also meant that the water was too cool for swimming.

I spent time listening to the waves, watching the water, and thinking. Being mindful of all that has happened this year. Moving away from negativity and worry. Moving towards positivity and creativity.

Watching my baby move towards being a beautiful girl with a big heart.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

SCIENCE!

Time at the art museum and the science museum to help break-up the day.


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

Argus

I recently cleaned out my closet and drawers to make room for "back to school/work" clothes. I was good and made two bags, one for our swap meet next month and one for Goodwill. Yesterday I hauled the big bag of unwanted goodness to the local Goodwill and while there I decided to go in to see what of others unwanted goodness I could find.
I always check out the camera section first. Sitting on the top shelf was a lovely Argus C3 for $9.00, in great shape I might add. I snagged it.



Sunday, August 22, 2010

Mister Brain Wash

After waiting for months I was finally able to go see Exit Through the Gift Shop, last night. It was not until the middle of the film that I realized that I had taken a shot of some MBW graffiti while in Paris this past spring. After a long day of walking and ending up in the latin quarter I sat down on a stoop for a few moments, I looked over and noticed this image and thought it would make a cool photo. At the time I was aware of Banksy, but not Mister Brain Wash.
As for my thoughts on the film, I thought it was fantastic and hilarious at moments. I also think that it was exactly what it was "supposed" to be. There is a lot of speculation surrounding this film and the making of this film.
It felt to me like a totally fabricated documentary made of real events. From the very beginning I felt like I was watching a mockumentary on SCTV. My husband and I have debated sections of the movie, I have read other reviews on the internet and I am sticking by the original thoughts I had as the movie ended; this movie did exactly what it was intended to do, get people talking.

If you get a chance to see it, do it!