It's been a while since I've been here (again), and it has been a while since I have connected to the world around me. The past few months have found me in some sort of combination of paying attention, while somehow being completely detached.
I haven't run in a year, exactly. Last year I worked extremely hard to work my way up to running three miles, starting with walk/run intervals, gradually increasing the run portion. Eventually the running decreased and the walking ended altogether.
Recently I made the decision to begin walking again, once May arrived. Sunday I headed off to the beautiful preserve that is nestled in my neighborhood. I listened to music, observed the beauty around me, took photos and walked. Running may come again in time, but if not, I'm okay with that. What I found that I needed as much as physical exercise, was some sort of reconnection, I needed to not only get outside, but I needed to get outside of my head.
Last Friday after class I found this advice of the day written on the board in my room:
"Ask yourself if it is worth the time/thought/energy, and if not, get the hell over it".
Blunt and to the point. I have no idea exactly who this advice was directed at, but I have to wonder if she had any idea how much I needed it.
"get the hell over it"...walk..."get the hell over it"....walk..."get the hell over it...walk...get the hell over it...breathe
