Friday, December 31, 2010

Transformation

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Last year my word for 2010 was transformation. I had a specific image in my head how this would look. Much to my surprise, the transformation I went through came in a completely different form.
I began a photo journal to document my transformation, from which this photo is taken, last January. I abandoned the project once I began to feel ashamed that not only was there no transformation taking place, but I seemed to be backsliding.
During that time I was drowning in certain realities about life and my place in the world, in my family, and in my own head.
It wasn't until I started reflecting on the past year and trying to come up with a word for 2011 that I realized I did undergo a huge transformation, it just wasn't in the sense of the word that I originally intended.
Sitting here writing this I realize I am in a completely different place than I was at this time last year. I am content. I gave in to who I am, not who I think I should be or what I think is expected of me. I am happy.
I haven't stopped caring about others or abandoned my responsibilities, but I do approach those aspects of humanity much more honestly and authentically.
Upon reflection I am satisfied to know that the transformation I underwent was not a physical one, but a mental one.
As for my word for 2011, well, perhaps it will come to me at some point today.


Thursday, December 30, 2010

Vision

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Only when I look at myself through your eyes do I see my imperfection.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Good Grief

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It's all behind us now.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

Silence

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"do not speak unless you can improve the silence"
~danish proverb

Thursday, December 16, 2010

In Progress (still)

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Small portion of a painting that I have had in progress since last January.
It has gone through many changes, but not changed all that much. I am finally at a point where I am happy with what I have completed. I am ready to add another element to it, though I am still debating what that will be.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Torn

torn

I never claimed to be perfect.